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29.10.25

Book review: The picture of Dorian Gray

 Bonjour Babes

So this will be my first review on my blog. I have written a few on my goodreads, but I only write one when the book was bad. So now by trying to review all books my reviewing skills will improve hopefully.

disclaimer: the phrasing and understanding required of this book is higher than average for me. This is not the first time I have read litrature, but it is the first time of a book written in English and published over 100 years ago. So I will not always be possible to give an in depth review.

spoilers will be at the very end if I care to include spoilers

Well this book is so beautiful. I find that when I finish a more 'difficult' book, I regret not enjoying the reading process more. That's why I will DEFINETLY read this book again. The beauty doesn't only lie in the plot and story but also in the word and how well written this was. 

You get overflown with these sharp remarks of Lord Henry and the conversations between him and his collocutor(s) (apparently a fancy word for a conversational partner said google translate), which I absolutely love. You shall not read this book in haste! It does slow the book down at some points which may not be for everyone, but I personally love. 

Despite the fact that we I don't feel like I see Dorian change while reading (there was a big time jump and overall apart from the key events I don't feel like there was something gradual going on. EDIT: now I feel like I did see him change more. It's just his behaviour towards Lord Henry I didn't feel like changed to much), you do very much get an insight in what changed. It was hard to make that jump (EDIT: there was like this one where he jumped 20 years in time or so, I cannot recall this very good because I read it in chops. So that also affected my experience reading) in time but as I read the book over a long period of time it felt like I was living it with him. And that Sybil Vane was like an old covered memory. I just very much liked that. Dorian's frustrations came through me a lot when Sybil was acting bad infront of his friends, and it did make me feel bad for him too. I think this is because in this part he was still a very young innocent boy. The events that happened after this felt more detatched at times. Ofcourse the key events feel very intense and add this element of his moral being to the book. does that make sense?

I really grew fond of Dorian too. He is frustrated at the end that Harry won't see him as more then a stupid boy, and somewhere I thought Dorian might reveal the secret to Harry but that ended different ofcourse. That is something I really like about this. Because in ways he is still not very smart in the way Lord henry is, but because Dorian has bigger secrets/ amoralities, these overshadow that. Maybe this isn't very accurate but this is just how I feel about it a little. 

I feel there are many metafors in this book I haven't yet uncoverd. Which makes me want to read it again. This might be the first book that I will reread. This is also just a pretentious way of saying that I didn't always pay attention. I think there is one chapter where Dorian has all these hobby's which get a paragraph each of dry discription with beautiful words nonetheless and I think I skimmed trough it at some part. About that I might take back that he doesn't gradually decent into ammorality, I think this showcases a kind of decent of madness caused by this ammorality.

well I hope this made any sense at all. I feel like Lord Henry would call me stupid. He in some ways is something I kind of admire. Very cynical, I think it's called. 

Thank you for bearing with me. I probably made a thousand grammar mistakes and mistypes, and understood it not even a little bit. But I will revisit this book surely even if it's the last thing I do.

Bye Bye little ones

I hope you have a wonderful day or night

xoxo 

#2 day in Maastricht

 Bonjour babes!

today I went to Maastricht to study and buy some things (mind you it was €135, I'm broke lol). I bought some autumnal wintery nail polishes, a cami from Hollister (also one for my friend M whose birthday is saturday), some colored thights, and the rest... I forgot. 

I started the day by getting a flat white in the coffee shop under the library. I read a bit of 'The picture of Dorian Gray' by Oscar Wilde (review coming soon -note to self will turn this into a link). Then I went upstairs, I summarized and reviewed the first chapter of math that I had long forgotten. I made some pictures of a book that I might need for an assignment, for this assignment we needed to go in depth about an artwork/painting. I chose Basquiat, and the teacher gave us the 'Horn Players' because that was the only one with the resources that we were required to use.Anyways after I finished math I started physics and lost all hope in this year. So I went on a walk.

little side tangent: before the summer started I was mad with my parents and out of rage I threw my phone across the room. It broke ofcourse. I bought a cheaper flip phone which also broke without my doing. And before I went to a party this year I needed a smartphone again which I then bought. But the data subscription got cancelled so I don't have 4/5g outisde of Belgium. And that led to the fact Google Maps didn't work. So I got a little bit lost but I arrived where I wanted to be in the end so it didn't really matter. I also abused the shit out of the free WiFi of random stores. That's so random btw, Why does a little make up store have free WiFi?
I finished my book ('The picture of Dorian Gray') and started 'The bell jar' by Sylvia Plath in the HEMA while drinking or eating or wtf a bowl of pea soup (it was so overpriced like almost €5 ???). Than I walked in circles for a while and shopped a bit. I also bought a few candles but that is it really. I am currently pushing out pinterest posts so hopefully some people will visit my blog. Maybe I will venture to tumblr to promote my blog
Anyways
bye bye 
see you next time
XOXO

27.10.25

About me!!

你好 你好 你好


Name: anonymous👅

age: lets just say I am 18 or under

nationality: live in Belgium but I am dutch 

academics: pretty good, I like to flaunt the fact that I have 8 hours of math. And my first report card was (relatively) good so maybe I am like... smart???

favourite food: idk pretty mutch everything

height: 167 cm i think?

hobbies: ballet , reading, coding in html, writing my blog, thinking about how my life would be if I studied more, ...

can you cook: hmmm yes eggs and instant noodles, but there is potential

relation ship status: very single looking for a boy 15-17 years old. But deep down inside I'm yearning for I. (aka detlef)

favourite drink: coca cola light (same as diet coke) I'm so happy I just bought 12 liters of coke light yay

learning any skills?: yessss, always looking to learn a new language. My main one is mandarin and I am interested in learning German and Russian. So if you speak one of those languages I would be pleased to know.

mbti personality type: INTJ but with 16 personalities test so idk if it's accurate

favourite season: autumn but also winter but also spring but also summer 

films: christiane f, fight club

books: Norwegian Wood - Kazuo Ishiguro; I really need to start reading again so I will update this

Music: David Bowie, Saiming, Niko B, Pinkpantheress

That is it for now feel free to ask questions in the description





#1 27th of October 2025

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Hello guys, I cannot belief It is already this late in October! Like Halloween is 4 days away. This is my first blog post so I am excited to see if there is anyone reading this. I would love for the 'older' internet to revive. I am so done with tiktok and stuff. Influencers make me tired. Maybe, maybe if there are enough people reading this I will get a little bit of money so that is exciting too!

Like I said halloween is a few days from now and there is a party I could go to. Now it is pretty far away and since it's not a birthday, I don't really think my parents are happy to hear that so I haven't told them. Since I wouldn't have been invited directly and still haven't received the adress it is not too bad. But so far the promise to myself that I would make more friends and socialize more. 

On todays planning: go to the dm (german store which is cheap for my country so I go there to buy stuff like cosmetics, ... I will share my shopping list) and make/finish an overview of my study material until now. It's the first day of my week of holidays and I want to use it productively. I am trying to get a bit of a glow  up since I desperatly want a boyfriend. Please tell me I am not the only one that is lonely, and also really wants a boyfriend. Can somebody give tips to get over the fact that you're a lonely mf. Well that being said I would like to pull some boys so I am buying shit for my eyebrows and skin. I have the feeling I am chronically sleep deprived and my skin reflects that, so fixing that would do wonders. And I also need to make a list so I can study this week, I should've done that yesterday because now its monday 11 in the morning and I haven't done a single f*ck.

My shopping list:
  • collagen daycream (might switch to normal cream instead of collagen)
  • collagen nightcream
  • normal moisturizer and one against pimples
  • clear and blond eyebrowgel
  • eyebrow pencil
  • eyecream (maybe with urea) because of my sleep deprivedness
  • vitamin c and d supplements for winter
  • pullmoll (candy like something)
  • chewing gum
  • lentil wafers and other healthy low cal snacks (for school)
    (I'm not trying to lose weight but I find that once I start eating I tend to not want to        stop so by fasting in the morning, having some snacks at school, and my first meal being after school I hope that I can stop this overeating. Does somebody have tips for this?)
  • candles
  • different colored pens at tedi probably
  • coca cola light (a lot)
That was my shopping list for Germany. Now I am going to make some tea.


Guess what guys I made my tea, made a hot water bottle and a little bowl of nuts. I really hope there will be people reading this. Maybe I will make a tiktok account to promote my website. My initial tought was to make a neocities website which I partially did, but it is not as I want it to be and I cannot update it like a blogger website. So this is more accessible for myself. If this becomes a succes I might be able to monetize it and make some money. That would be lots of fun. I made a pinterest account but I am not sure that it will generate views and redirect people to my website. Who knows what will happen. I might ask my friend D for help, she might give me tips on social media marketing lol. Maybe I should slide into comment sections who knows.

Well that was it for today. I will post an 'about me' soon. My question to you guys is a recommendation for a youtube channel of someone that is an academic weapon an atleast uses a voice. I like to watch those videos while prepping to study, but if they don't have a voice and I need to read subtitles I can't really prepare anything. So basically that. ugh I really love autumn, it's so dark and gloomy outside.

Bye bye angels, kiss kiss